Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Testing..testing...



  I know..it has been nearly a whole year since my last post. :/ I will be honest...I have been hiding. I have worked hard this last 6 months to get the kids, cat and I home to Idaho, acquire a good job and some stability. With the help of folks who love us...we have finally found some calm. Balance..well no..but calm is good for now. Along with a good job came the blessing of insurance. With this I was able to get my broken self into counseling.


Some would argue... that I am not broken..but the fact is I am a bit shattered. I have spent three long years in survival mode. I have lost so very much. I have gained so very much. My heart and soul, my Muse, my warrior woman..all hidden away from world. Unfortunately, I was pretty good at hiding them, because it has taken me a long three years to begin the journey back to them..back to me.



For the first time in what seems like forever, I feel the call to write..to share of myself, my journey. I have missed you all..missed the sharing and learning. For the first time in a long time I am not afraid to share the details of my life. In the very first session of counseling I was shocked by one very real epiphany ..I was closed, scared, protecting every little part of myself, my life...my story. I was afraid to even share with her the deeper truths of me. For those of you who know me...that is so far from center it is scary.


It took a very honest post on Facebook by my dear friend Zan, to snap my head around and go...WHAT? I lost this part of me too..this part of me I love? So here I am..trying to be me..finding the new me..finding all the pieces of me that have scattered. So if you will indulge me as I work though the past three years of life battles and a broken heart..I would love it if you pulled up a chair and joined me.
Hugs and Namaste

28 comments:

Holly said...

I will be right there, lending you my ears like a good Roman Countrymen and Friend! Well, at least the friend part.

Unknown said...

Awwww hon...thank you ♡♡♡

Unknown said...

Good for you, Sarah. <3 <3

Brenda Graver said...

Right there with ya .........having a hard time with getting my act together with my jewelry and hoping this block gets over very soon.............I am so glad that you started blogging again and I am always here to listen ..........love ya

Snap said...

We got ya and welcome the true you back. Namaste dear one......

Unknown said...

♡♡♡♡♡

Unknown said...

Right back at cha hon..♡♡♡

Unknown said...

Awww thank ya hon ♡♡♡

Gail H. Ragsdale said...

I'm right here. Don't blog much, but I do read others. I have been starting Mindfulness in an effort to get back to myself and combat chronic pain. It's actually a form of Meditation in my mind, just gives you a guide to go by which I needed.

Unknown said...

Sounds perfect. ♡♡

Unknown said...

Sounds perfect. ♡♡

sassypackrat said...

I've recently shattered into a million pieces. I'm using therapy and meds to try and get back as close to myself as I can. It's going to be a long process. Just not talking about it online.

But hugs and compassionate understanding to you my dear friend!

Unknown said...

Awww hon..I didn't know. Huge gentle hugs♡♡♡

Unknown said...

Still here, always listening..not blogging at all..but always here for you. As I know what life is like to come back from and start over again. ♡♡♡

Unknown said...

Still here, always listening..not blogging at all..but always here for you. As I know what life is like to come back from and start over again. ♡♡♡

Get A Clue said...

I hope and pray for you and that I too can mend the pieces back together. It's a long healing process but with love and support it can help shorten what seems to be a never ending journey! I'm here for you!

holdingmoments said...

Keep strong Sarah.

Unknown said...

Awww hi hon ♡♡♡

Unknown said...

♡♡♡♡♡♡

Unknown said...

Oh oh oh....hi!!! So wonderful to hear from you♡♡♡

RCA said...

great one!

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