Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Jamie has asked us this morning...What do you wish to have trust in? As always one of those strip you clean questions. I struggle with trust on so many levels. I have been in so many situations in my life that have invited judgement by others. Unwed mother, marrying a younger guy, my divorce etc. etc. Some have been self created, some imposed by others, some just life itself. I have to push myself some days to keep it real and not just go hide.
There were times when I was to immature to take constructive criticism and other times I have been cruelly attacked. Learning to know the difference took some maturity. Weeding out the helpful from the hurtful is still a challenge at times. So, I want to share of myself, warts, stupid choices and all and trust that what is returned is what I am suppose to hear. Sometimes that is straight talk, sometimes comfort, sometimes laughter, sometimes understanding. So I want to trust myself to be true to the lessons I have been given & trust myself to let it fly and trust the universe to use it the way it is meant to be used.