Wandering with direction..I know that sounds like an oxymoron..but there are many of us that do just that. Even when we don’t realize that our wandering path is still leading to our True North. It has been a bit since I have mused..or done a quilting bee here. I was chatting with a couple women in my life this week and realized how very much I missed writing here..and having you all chat right back. I missed you all. So here I am..contemplating my path.
I am 52 come October and my sister will be 60 this week. We have been chatting about our ages and what that feels like to us. Often that conversation focuses on where our paths have led. The expected and the unexpected. Which led me to consider just where I have ended up and how I got here.
I was NOT one of those young people that had a clear vision of what I wanted to be when I grew up..I waivered and wandered. The fact that at 51 I am just now finishing my degree speaks volumes. I could easily say I was clueless..but that would not be true. I could also feel frustrated that I have taken this long to find my path..or focus. But ya know…I don’t feel that way.
After the last year of wondering how on earth I ended up being 51 and kinda poor and how did that happen, and what the heck…I snapped out of it. I had an epiphany..I like who I am! I like who I have become..I had a path all this time..I just didn’t see the whole picture! I am a teacher..maybe teaching different things to different ages..but still teaching. I am creating as I always have..new things all the time..but still creating. These are things I have ALWAYS been. So as I have wandered about taking side paths and exploring this thing and that..I have been learning and honing in those skills..teaching and creating. The summer I spent running program at Girl Scout Camp (OMG that was fun) I was teaching and creating…all summer. All those years working with different ages of children and creating with them…all those adult classes I have taught. I have been at times accused of being a Jane of all Trades..unfocused..even called Martha Stewart at times because I have mastered so many creative disciplines. But through the years I have gone about learning many craft..to be honest there are several still on my list..I wanna learn to make glass beads and weave baskets, spin yarn. I have always been fascinated by craft!
So what is my point here? I often hear folks say that they are unfocused..have so many interests..why could they not be like their sibling who knew just what to be at 15 and did that. Like somehow that is better than wandering a bit. “Not all those who wander are lost!!!!" (JRR Tolkien) we are just lucky. We get to try out lots of hats until we find one..or many as the case might be that fit! I have a bunch of them. We are those “Creative’s” who are Allowed to play a bit! I own my own little cottage, have FIVE wonderful kids, run my own business and am a senior in college!! How wonderful is that!?
So here at almost 52 I am pretty happy with me. I am unique..uncommon..a bit of a geek and I am ok with that. Why..cause I am also a powerful force to be reckoned with! There is nothing more powerful than a happy woman!! So even though my life is not exactly what I expected it to be at 51..it is oh so much more!! Who can argue with that!!?? I am kinda excited to see what comes next!!
So please take a minute and tell me what in your life is so much better than you could have dreamed? Tell me how you have wandered..do you see a pattern? Tell me about beautiful you!!! Hugs all!