Saturday, July 18, 2009

A Bit Blue....


I guess I don't feel much like posting today..but well here I am. Jim is off for training for several weeks and we have been warned that their alert to deploy may come during training. I know lots of women who would give their right arm to have time without their spouses. I even had a few ask me if I was gonna celebrate..uhmmmmm not so much. I am not one of those women..I miss him very much. Frankly..I quite adore the man! Nothing feels quite right without him here.

Yup am dealing & am feeling like a whiny baby just saying all of this..but I'm really deeply scared that he will not be back for months rather than weeks. Fox and Nonni are despondent and struggling too. So I am busy trying to boost them up and keep them to busy to think about the next three weeks. We decided not to mention the chance that he may be gone for months. To top it all off the last couple nights of little sleep has brought this coldy thing creeping back..ackkkkk. So I feel sad and sick ta boot. Anyway, thanks for listening to me vent a bit..it helps to put it out there.
Hugs and Namaste, Sarah

28 comments:

Bonnie, Original Heart Studio said...

Sarah, I feel so sad for you and your family - and all the thousands of families torn apart by war and training for. Such an ancient story that it resonates deep in our bones.
As I type this there is what sounds like Irish music in the background, which feels so fitting to go with your post about families separated to defend territory and ideals.
Hang on.

Holly said...

Dear One:
I relate to this in one way in that there will be more times than not when we won't know where Evan is or what part of the world his gunship is flying into and out of.

Just know that if your hubby is called, my son and his Air Force will be there to assist in whatever way is possible.

As he is assigned to A.F. Special Ops, I will be worried. I feel that. But, I can't know how it feels to be a mother with the responsibility of two young ones.

And, I can't know what it is to be worried about the safety and care of my loving spouse.

Reiki winging its way to you, tonight.

Your Loving Crone

sallymandy said...

Sarah: my heart's going out to you tonight. My husband was in the Air Force Reserves and was deployed for two years, starting about six years ago. You're not alone. I know what you mean, too, about appreciating him in a way that others might not understand. When you know he might be gone for a long time, the daily small annoyances don't mean as much.

Take care of yourself. Love, Sallymandy

Sheila said...

{{{{{{{{{{Sarah}}}}}}}}}
Here's hoping your fears are idle and that alert doesn't come.

Christine said...

I so feel for you. Here's to no deployment. I will be praying for you and your family!

Blessings,
Christine

Christina said...

I grew up an air force brat. Dad was career military, 25 years. Vietnam Veteran. Cant offer any words of wisdom. Regardless of politics, I think our troops are the most special people there are. You will make it if your husband has to leave, you will. I send out a whisper to the fates that he doesnt have to.


Do what I do when feeling blue. Eat a whole pie.

Kim McBirnie said...

Oh Sarah, I think everyone else has hit the nail on the head with their comments. One thing that does come to mind, though, is you can feel rightly smug about the relationship you have with Jim - I know so many women who complain bitterly about their husbands and long for them to go away - in the meantime belittleing the relationship they have built. You and I have a secret a lot of women feel is worthless, that it is a good and precious thing to be in love, and to nurture that relationship. Chin up kid.

Audrey said...

Sarah, I feel so bad for all of you. I know from your posts how much you adore Jim - I cannot even begin to fathom what you and the children are going through at this moment. I pray that Jim is not apart from you for too long - that you will all be reunited before you know it. Until then, know that we are all here for you - to love you and to support you. Feel free to be as sad/mad/anxious as you need to be - we will try to help you through it.
Love to you
xoxoxo

Holly said...

Oh, back again today to say, you weren't whining...don't apologize for sharing the sad, worrisome side with us when you share so freely the whimsy, love, and caring side of you. Hear?!

halloweenspirit01 said...

Thank heavens for kids. They keep you going don't they. Also, you're never alone when you have younger kids around. Hang in there Sarah. Think positive!

Brightest Blessings said...

Sarah there is no shame in loving your husband! I would miss mine so much if he had to leave for months at a time. (((Sarah))) I don't care for it when he goes out of town for a couple of days.

BB
Dede

beth said...

i understand how you feel so very much...
my hubby is away at his new job in another state and we are only seeing each other once a month....

and like you, I rather adore him and miss him terribly but I keep that missing part to myself, mostly, as to not bring him down....

this blog world filled with blog loves has been a huge support to me and it will be for you, too :)

Sarah said...

Thank you all so very much!! You mean the world to me!!
Hugs and love, Sarah

Snap said...

Sarah, you aren't alone -- in thought anyway! You adore your Jim the way I adore Mr. Dragon. Keep the kids busy (and yourself), get over your yucky cold and HUG yourself.

Renee said...

Dear friend, I am hugging you while being hugged back by you.

Sarah I hope to hell he doesn't have to go and then he can get the hell out of that stupid army.

Love Renee xoxo

Tabitha@ichoosebliss said...

I understand how you feel very well. When hubby and I are apart for more than 24 hours we are both miserable. We give one another alone time, but we are always in the same home and end up in each others face before long.

I will be praying for your hubby to come home as scheduled, for you and the kids to get through it smoothly and for you to feel better very soon.

Suecae Sounds said...

I hope that you two are united not before long.

Judy said...

You are entitled to whine all you want....I hope your husband will be back home very soon.

holdingmoments said...

Sarah I'm sure your man will be back safe and sound in no time at all.

Ginaagain said...

Oh Sarah, I hope he is home soon. Be strong.

Kathleen Coy said...

Ah sweetie, I'm right there with ya. Mines been gone for 5 weeks, still have 2 more to go. I've been staying super busy and it does help.
Hugs!

clairedulalune said...

Dearest Sarah, my heart is so torn for you and your family right now. I am so sorry that a lovely lady like you has to suffer this horrible situation. Hopeful and loving thoughts being kissed into the sky to reach you tonight. All the best.

Sherry Byrum said...

Sarah,
I would be like you, I would miss Ron terribly if he had to be gone that long. Makes me realize how I take it for granted that he is here. Just do it one day at a time. There is still a chance he won't be deployed! I wish for you, him and your children that he doesn't.
You can vent to me anytime you want.
Lots of hugs,
Sherry

JAN'S PLACE said...

Give him extra hugs, as we are a Military loving family, and so deeply appreciate our men and women in the Armed Services.

I know what you mean about how it feels when they are not home, my husband worked 2 states away for almost 2 years..it was awful.

Our prayers going out for you husband and family :)

Sarah said...

Thank you all so much..hugs, Sarah

Alicia @ boylerpf said...

To you dear Sarah, Nonni and Fox.. ((((hug)))). I'll say a prayer for his fast and safe return. A true love story you..how could people be married and celebrate being apart? That to me is quite the odd one. We're all with you...one foot in front of the other.

Jeanne said...

Oh Sarah, my heart goes out to you! I understand how you feel. When my guy is gone, even for a minute, I feel like part of me is gone as well. But you must think positive thoughts! For you, for Jim and for Nonni and Fox. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts. {{Hugs}} Jeanne

Becky said...

Dear, dear Sarah! Please give your husband my thanks for his service to our country! And thank YOU for sharing him with all of us to keep us safe and free! I hope that he returns to you soon... I too know the pain of seperation! Feel free to "vent" any time. You have many friends in blogland, and we have big shoulders! Hugs!
Love & Light~
OM girl