Sunday, May 17, 2009
Quilting Bee of Folks #9
Good morning thank you for coming again!! I do love it when you stop by!! I think the weather here today might just be warm enough to quilt and chat outside today - a lovely 78 degrees and sunny. Our trees are just starting to leaf out and the bulbs are just starting to pop! It really does smell delicious in my yard. So I thought I would set out some warm weather goodies today - some lovely fruit iced tea and fresh fruit and light muffins and scones!! I have also put out some amazing jam! A friend of mine makes it - the best I have ever had!!! I have racked a very calm and restful quilt this week so... please pull up a chair and join me.
All this last week or so I have been struggling to get my feet back under me. Managed to get myself out of my pity pool and on the right track but my spirit was tired and wanted rest. So what did I do - push it harder. It's not like me to be depressed - but deep blue I have been for days now. I guess this scared me - alot. The kind of scared that wakes you up at 2AM with a start, heart racing and mind whirling. So.... I beat myself up over my distress and worried over why I was not snapping out of it already. My head said - time to move on - my spirit said - uhmmmmm not yet - there are things to be studied here - stop and breathe and listen to me!! So after reaching that point where I just couldn't take it anymore - I finally gave... good grief I can be stubborn!!
I stopped and looked for help. I took a long walk and said hello to nature and forced myself to be present and breathe, deeply. I walked myself to the library and checked out a few books that have been friends in the past - like "Co-Dependent No More" and a good fun romance and a new mystery by an author I adore & I sat down - yup at the library. I just sat down and enjoyed watching the people go by and I did nothing for a bit. As I sat doing nothing the fog began to clear a bit - I knew what I had to do. I had to allow myself to rest. Mind, body, spirit - just rest for a day or two maybe longer and be ok with that. I need a couple days to mend me. I need to listen to what my spirit and soul is trying so hard to tell me - what I need to see in all this. So for the next couple days, the world will go round and I will ride along not steer. I will leave all the pressure I have placed on myself by itself and do whatever. Yes, I have kiddos coming, but that can be fun and relaxing if I choose. I forget to stop sometimes and it makes me a sad girl. So books, music, blogging, maybe knitting, silly dancing with the preschoolers, finger painting - whatever feels good to me for a few days. I will replenish my spirit as it seems I have starved the poor thing of late. I will love on, nourish and pamper it - until it feels strong enough to pick up that platter and deal.
So my question to you today is ....Do you need to put down your platter for a little bit and replenish? Does your spirit, body or mind need a vacation - even for an hour? Are there things your soul is trying to share with you and you are running so fast in the other direction - you can't hear it calling out to you? What do you need to stop and hear your soul saying to you? Please share with us if you feel like doing so!
So.. I think I will grab some of that delightful peach tea and a blueberry scone with Diane's amazing peach jam and sit with you all and breathe. Because, one of the things I do everyday, being here and chatting with all of you replenishes my soul in ways you cannot imagine. Thank you for stopping by replenishing my soul and pulling up a chair.
Hugs and Namaste, Sarah