Monday, May 11, 2009
Quilting Bee of Folks #8 (WOW!!)
Good morning everyone! I have set out several delicious coffee cakes, orange and almond and delicious smelling cinnamon. Yummy can you smell them? Mmmmmmm mingling with the smell of coffee . I have also added a bit of fresh fruit, strawberries and melon. I have racked an interesting quilt today, full of color and changing angles and curves. Please pull up a chair and join me.
Most of you know I have had a rough month. It has been one of those test your strength and what you have learned months. The universe knocking and asking if you get it yet… so I was thinking about the concept of changing your mind and what we choose to embrace in our lives. This can be a double edged sword. How we choose to look at the things that occur in our lives – big little, short term, long term. As you may have read – it seems like I am in one of those seasons where lots of big things are changing despite my wanting to cling to old ideas…they change anyway. The posts from all you wonderful folks this weekend helped me redirect my thinking – change my mind and embrace the possibilities. Thank you so very much.
This old dog is still learning new tricks and refining old ones. I have “changed my mind” about a lot of things over the last ten years. When I say changed my mind I mean literally changed my thinking about certain things in my life and how I chose to view them. Like…… being a victim – I was deeply entrenched in that belief and I view all the things that happened to me from that point of view. My divorce and all of the things that followed – some of those things were deeply painful. Some of those days I truly understood for the first time in my life why people commit suicide. I never reached that point but was on my knees and knew something had to change. I had to learn to embrace the possibilities – good ones and not be a victim in my own life. Maybe this sounds silly – but I think it was then that I realized that it was “my” life! That I had the right to choose the direction of my life – I was no longer a victim!! Whoo hoo lightbulb!
But…. here was the kicker – I still had the “victim” mindset. Some how I had to learn to look at life differently – from why me to why not me and what the heck am I suppose to learn from this???!!! How could I embrace a different attitude. Very, very slowly….. one little thing at a time. I started with simple small things and moved onto bigger things. I forced my mind to look at things in a different light. Over and over I stopped and redirected my mind until the pathway changed. So here I am ten years later – still stretching myself – to embrace the good in events that surround me. Like this week – I still had to ask for help when my mind wants to take a dive into the pitty pool. I did a bit of wading this week – ok it was a lot of wallowing…but it was short lived. Whoo hoo progress. I am that – a work in progress and that, I am ok with. So today – thank you in large part to all of you – I am on track and am embracing whatever comes to me with the current house issue. I’m almost even excited – thank you for helping me “change my mind” and move on.
So…. my question today – what do you need to “change your mind” about – little or big? Is there something out there waiting for you to embrace it?? Share with us!! Let it fly!
Ok – am in need of sweets now . Where is that almond coffee cake and a lovely strong cup of Joe with sugar and cream. Ackkkk this quilting bee is killing my virtual diet!!! Thank you for being there for me and joining me again today – wow – week eight!!! I am honored and touched that you came back!! Thank you for pulling up a chair and Namaste, Sarah