Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Wishcast Wednesday...


Our dear Jamie has asked us this morning... What do you wish to know? Hmmmmm...well..what don't I want to know? Focus...focus....Hmmm...ok...how do I write this...I wish to know the lesson..the gift in every challenge that I am given. As I walk through life that I see the gift and not the struggle. I wish to know continuing awareness.

Over the last 40 years or so I have been given many hard lessons to walk through. Domestic violence, loss, deaths of dear ones, unwed motherhood, wealth and then deep poverty, divorce, horrid custody battles and separation from my children for periods of time. A whole boatload of pain...over and over again..in long rivers of heartache. For many years I lived in victimhood ..lost and wondering how I had gotten to this place or another...and why...I asked a lot of why questions.

Of course as you know when you ask why...you tend to get answers. A tap on the mental shoulder and..."Uhmmmm Sarah...choices...you made choices...here are the answers to them. How are you going to deal with them this time..what did you learn...what did you glean from the last horrid experience..ARE YOU AWAKE THIS TIME?"

I woke up...I quit being a victim..I started to see the lessons in my pain. Better yet..after that I began to see the gifts I was being given to use.. the gifts behind the lessons. The true meaning of fired by steel...what being present really meant. The huge gift of awareness!

So today, what do I wish to know is this ..I wish to know continuing awareness. I wish to be present in my daily wanderings and if there are struggles and lessons that I am aware of my place in them..my responsibility and that somehow I may walk gracefully through them. That is what I wish today... what do you wish to know today?
Namaste, Sarah

23 comments:

Diva Kreszl said...

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." (Maria Robinson) sounds like you're on your way to achieving your wish dear Sarah!

Jo Anna said...

So incredibly lovely! Thank you for sharing!
As you wish for yourself, I wish for you as well.

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Too many people live as victims! You're an inspiration!

LissaL said...

Sometimes we have to go through the fire to get out of the shallows. (Martha Beck)
As Sarah wishes for herself, so I wish also

" M " said...

You have alot of life experience and most of all you have survived it . YOu are a very strong women be proud of yourself . : P

As Sarah wishes for herself , I wish for her also.

Judy said...

Sounds like you've had an interesting, many faceted life...if you've learned all the lessons taught, you've learned alot...use that information wisely...

Lawendula said...

As Sarah wishes for herself, so I wish for her also!

Awareness is more than most people have reached in life. I think it's a great base for learning LOVE.
xox

Jennifer said...

What an incredibly beautiful post! I wholeheartedly wish you nothing but beautiful things in life!~

Snap said...

As Sarah wishes for herself, so I lovingly wish for her also. Awareness ... in the moment ... MINDFULNESS (that wonderful Buddhist term ... that is so hard to do, but very, very important). Ygads!

TechnoBabe said...

You have been through so much and you reach out to those others of us in similar situations. You have been a wonderful inspiration to me.

Stefanie said...

As Sarah wishes for herself, so I wish for all of us - that we find the space for awareness.

Wishing you nothing but goodness.

Ginny said...

What a beautiful post, Sarah. Knowing our own place in where we are as well as our responsibilty puts the power where it belongs. Thanks you for sharing your thoughts. As Sarah, wishes for herself, I wish for her as well.

Kim Switzer said...

As Sarah wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.

Lucy Ladham-Dyment said...

As Sarah wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.

CEB said...

A powerful post. Thank you for sharing yourself so honestly. As you wish for yourself, I wish for you as well.

Librarian Lee said...

A Sarah wishes for herself, so do I wish for her also. Thank you for that stark truth, more than you know.

Robin said...

Your awareness is a wonderful thing!

As Sarah wishes for herself, so I wish for her!

Joanna Jenkins said...

Continuing awareness-- Excellent choice Sarah. I wish that for you and more.
xo

Gail H. Ragsdale said...

You have overcome so much and are such an inspiration!

As Sarah wishes for herself, so I wish for her!

In love and light~gail

Sherry Byrum said...

Such a positive way to look at it Sarah! I can relate. Choices are like pebbles thrown on a lake, the ripple effect can continue for a long time. LOL But you are an inspiration to others who also are wandering wondering the same questions? :)
Drop by my blog, I left you a little award!

umbrellalady said...

Having gone to an emotional hell and back again - surprisingly intact I might add - I completely understand what you mean be wanting to understand the message...pity we have to sometimes have it smash us in the face first - a pillow fight would be a much nicer way for it to hit us in the face.

Beverley Baird said...

As Sarah wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.
Here's to always being aware!

Karen D said...

Just Wow! You are a rockstar and that is all I can say to this, blew me away.
Namaste,
Karen