Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Our dear Jamie has asked us this morning..."What do you wish to take a break from?". Well I read this last night..I love it when she posts them early..lets me contemplate them a bit. Many of you know the last month has been stress filled for me. Not all of it bad stress..as we are closing on our sweet cottage in the next week or so..I am thrilled..over the moon.
Commission pieces have been requested and I am working on a new idea that has me not only a bit scared but really thrilled to Let Fly in the coming weeks. We lost Sweet Renee and that took some working through as I love her so. We have also been sick..(small wonder there) among other things I am dealing with. So well... a tough month.
So of course my first thought was...I wannnnnna run awayyyyyy! To some far away place all alone with nothing to do but sit and watch the clouds roll by. But..as I thought about it..reality sunk in and here is the deal. I am the one in charge, I am the breadwinner, bill payer, Mom, Wife, child care taker, shopper, nurse, chauffeur, cook, accountant, artist, photographer, etc. etc.etc.etc....well you get it. Basically it is all on me every day. I am tired. But in truth what is really tired is my spirit. Why? Because in taking care of everything else...I have neglected my spirit..I have wandered away from my meditations and daily practice that is the core of me being centered. That balance that reminds me daily that all I do is a joy and to be present in it. I forget to be present and calm and not worry about what I know will take care of itself and all will be well..one way or another. I know this..but when I am not caring for this part of me..it all goes as I say doodleywonkers.
So I wish to take a break during my vacation for the next 11 days and reestablish my spiritual practices. To slow down for a bit and just let things be...I wish to be ok with this for vacation..so I can be refreshed on the other end.