Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Our dear Jamie asked us this morning...How do you wish to nourish yourself? Ok it is not good when the second you read this you burst into tears...seriously. Big old message..Sarah you need to consider this..now..this minute.
So here I am...I feel like all I have done was whine each Wednesday....all Summer. Ackkk I hate that..I am not a whiner. There has been one thing after another this season. Every time I think I am on top of it and back on my feet...something or someone else creates issues. I just wanted a calm summer..to relax before my school program began again in the Fall. Here I am at the end of July and I feel as tight and bound up as I did at the end of the school year. Out here in the real world I have come to some painful understandings about folks I have trusted..people I care about have broken trust in huge ways that even my forgiving soul can't ignore. My feelings are bruised and beaten. I have had to regroup my thinking on so many issues. What it comes down to is this..I am hurt and I am sad about what has gone on this summer..but I am dealing with it..I am journaling and finding out how I feel..where my responsibility lies..the lessons here..the good stuff..the treasure. I am trying to move on and figure out where this is leading me and why. Learning what I am suppose to take away from all of this!
What do I need to nourish...my soul..my heart..my confidence...my strength. I need to nourish the joy I feel in small things and time spent with my children. I need to nourish my power...that warrior woman needs some building up. Because I think this year she has been beaten down and pushed in a corner..time for her to come out confident and strong. See I knew I should be here today..cause I feel better already..just knowing where I need to go...I need to reach my hand into that corner and draw out my warrior woman and let her fly!! Thank you Jamie! I so needed this today!!
What do you wish today? Namaste, Sarah