Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Our dear Jamie has asked us today... What do you wish for your relationships? Ok am already crying....geesh. Tagged me today Jamie....I am struggling with this one ...a lot this last month or so.
I have such amazingly wonderful friends online...I love how we support each other up and check in on each other...I cannot begin to tell you how much these relationships mean to me... they keep me balanced and functioning when things are rough...and cheer me on when I have thing to happy dance about. They are in the truest sense of the word Mile deep friendships.
My relationships out here in the non cyber world ...some are good..folks I love and are there when I need them and is returned...they are loving and wonderful. But it seems this summer..those that I have to deal with all the time are busy taking advantage of my nicer side. I have been deeply hurt in the last couple weeks by a couple of folks that I have to continue to deal with daily...trust breaking stuff. I said the other day that I felt like my feet had been knocked out from under me...I got back up last week and had it happen two more times. By Sunday I just felt used up and gun shy...I wanted to hide...so I am crawling out of my hiding space today...breathing and trying to get back on my path and keep going..breathing deep and getting present.
So I guess my wish for my relationships this week ..is to understand what has been happening and why..to work through it and either form stronger boundaries or mend them. I need to find my way back to my relationship with my strong self and let some of the rain just roll off my back and quack. This week I wish to be a better quacker. Hugs all, Sarah
Oh oh oh one very happy note....I got my results back...all is normal with the pap and thyroid test..for this, huge happy dancing!! Despite the rain!!! QUACK!!