Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Our Jamie has asked us this morning... How do you wish to bloom? Well...here we go another amazingly on target question from Jamie!! Being authentic I guess...Bonnie was talking about this on her blog this morning...I love Bonnie's blog!! I got to thinking about the fact that I am pretty straight up here about who I am...what you see is me..not a mask or an idea of me..its me. Are there personal things that I don't share here..yup. Things that would effect others in my life..personal things that might effect me but are not mine to share..that sort of thing. But overall...those of you who know me here ..know the real me.
But...in the non-cyber world that is a harder nut to crack.. as I offer up the real me here..the mask that I wear out there to protect myself is falling away and the real me in the non-cyber world is starting to emerge. I read people so well that being in groups of women in particular is a challenge for me. I do not conform to the norm of fashion or wear the latest hair style. Seriously I could really care less who made my purse as long as it serves the purpose I want it to. I wear what is comfortable to me..sometimes that is a pair of my hubbies camo pants from his time in the service. They are a bit big..drawstring waist...but the most comfortable pants I have ever worn. I try to add a bit of flare with a sweater or hat..but seriously..I love them. Do they fit in with the young up and comers at my kids school..not so much. I adore a good Lands End dress with leggings and leg warmers and pair of hiking boots..love that. Not exactly in style. So why do I feel discomfort in being who I am? Because of the tude I get..that "oh Sarah she is a bit odd" vibe. I have always gotten that even when I tried to fit in. So..I would like my sense of self to bloom...to be comfortable with my own style and not worry or frankly care about what others think..to be the unusual flower that I am. I guess what I am saying is that I have never been an everyday beauty like a rose..I am more of a violet I guess.
So..I wish today to bloom in my authenticity our here in the big world! What do you wish today? Namaste, Sarah