It has been a rough season really. To be honest that is half the reason I have been missing in action here on my blog. Yup was a busy summer..and I loved the lake and being with just my kids for a change. But here I am in October and having to rethink things..again. Unemployment checks for Jim ended early..and threw us for a loop. To say the least..we are scrambling.
So what am I really writing about today..regret..frustration..anger..well..no not so much. Have I been feeling all those things? Yuppers..right back in that financial pit! I grumbled..cussed..was cranky and sulky...
Uhmmm...yup..that! If course you all know my Muse..always having to get the last word in..
"Ehemmm....HELLO! Are you listening Sarah??"
Trying to ignore you...am being grumpy girl..pity pool..geesh.
" Time to wade on out and get a grip..no time for all this foolishness..get over yourself!"
"Has it occurred to you that maybe..just maybe there is some wonderful new experience waiting for you? That perhaps this is an opportunity waiting to be offered?"
But..but...but..I have it all planned out..what is suppose to happen..all planned out!!!
"LOL Sarah..are you serious?? Planned out huh? So let me ask you..did you not ask for certain things to be brought into your life?? Put it out there right?"
"Well has it occurred to you that you are getting an answer?"
"Then let that sink in and get back to me!"
Ok..so this is where I am today..my Muse has made herself known..and I am thinking on this notion. That I put out there what I wanted..and that this could be an positive thing..not a negative one..that I need to go with the flow..and ..yup..got it.. be present and positive!
Being present sometimes feels like a skittish horse to me..shys away so easily and just out of reach. I need a bucket of oats I think!
Hope your Wednesday is a good one!