Sunday, August 2, 2009
Quilting Bee #18
Hello everyone! This week I am doubly happy to see you here! I have pulled out all the stops. I have my friend Sarah here again today..she has brought her latte machine and will make you anything you wish..hot or cold! I have set out some delicious Quiche with bacon or ham and a veggie frittata..yum! We have some lovely Gala apples from Washington and wrapped them in delicious pastry..they are hot and bubbly and topped off with homemade vanilla ice cream. We aslo have some yummy huckleberries and strawberries to nibble on and of course some creamy yogurt.
I have racked a new quilt today full of paths and gentle turns. Thank you for joining me again today. Please pull up a chair.
Last week was a rough one for me. Lots of reasons I guess. Jim is gone and it greatly affects the kids and I. We miss him. He misses us. It has been painful. You get used to someone being around, sometimes take for granted the little things they do to ease your day. You forget their worth. How simple encouragements bolster your day. The hug, the passing kiss, the little shoulder rub...yup those things.
So..I was blue already. As I wandered through the blogs last week I also noticed something afoot. There was some really negative things going on here and there. Snipping and snarkiness, hurt full comments and loss. Conversations about the over abundance of positiveness here on the blogs. A couple of folks I love have decided to quit blogging for a bit, I will miss their voices. One friend was blindsided and deeply hurt by unnecessary gossip. Someone even mentioned being stalked by followers??!! So..by weeks end I wasn't blue I was a deep shade of indigo!!
I pondered over the concept that all of the encouragement and loving energy that is offered here every day was somehow false and smarmy. I could not wrap my head around that one. Still it stuck with me and troubled me. How is it possible to offer up kindness and concern to another and have that considered worthless and not genuine? When I take the time to go to someone's blog and post a comment - I mean what I say. I suspect for the very large part of us here, you do to!
I feel deep connections with so many of the folks I know here. I follow folks that I feel in tune with. Sometimes that is a common interest, like art or photography. Sometimes we have similar beliefs about life. Some of these folks I follow are beyond amazing and I hope to learn at their feet! I have inch deep and mile deep friends here. All of them are important to me. So as I saw things going south this week - I was questioning my perspective. Had I given this place too much worth, was I expecting too much..had I missed the point? I was doubting my reason for being here.
Then in beautiful synchronicity..I received an email. At the point where I was just so deeply sad and doubting. As always happens when the universe turns as it should and your questions are answered..I was given my answer. I hope she does not mind me speaking of it here..a huge thank you hon. She told me about her experience blogging with me, the back and forth..the positive things she found on my blog and how it made her feel. I was thunder struck and so deeply touched by her words. Right there..I remembered why I blog. Why I am here. Because it touches me. Because it offers me a chance to reach out and touch you..if I'm lucky. It is not smarmy or overly positive..it is what I love about being here. If this is what was meant by being stalked by followers...stalk away folks. I am blessed to have you and hope you find something of worth following me.
So, despite any negativity out there...please continue to offer up who you are. Laughter and tears, pain and pleasure, silliness and seriousness, love and rants. Please know that as I wander through this world of blogging ..when I post a comment, I mean every word that I offer up to you. I guess what I am saying is all of those little things you offer me everyday.. are worth so very much and I have not taken you for granted. Thank you from the bottom of my heart what you have offer me!!
Oh and Jim.... will be home this week..not a moment too soon.. This cougar is very ready for his return..hope he is rested up..giggle, snort!! I would love for you to tell me what you find here in blogland that feeds you? What makes your soul sing here? Please share your experience!
I think I will go off and get a snack..would you join me? Hmmmmm let see I think I will have a double shot, skinny, raspberry, iced, 20 oz latte and a little slice of quiche and some of those huckleberries please....yummmmm. Thank you all for being here again today. Namaste, Sarah