Wishcasting Wednesday

Jamie has asked us today - What help do you wish to receive? I read this last night - being on the West coast I saw it at 9pm. I couldn't answer it then - to raw still I guess. So I will suck it up and say - help understanding my daughter's actions and clearer understanding of how/if I have contributed to this somehow. Help to not feel so deeply hurt myself. Friends who know what we have been through with Hanna since she came to live here all the time have asked me, "Do you feel relieved Sarah?" You would think I would as she has created huge stress here. My head knows she is getting the help she needs to be a functional human!!! I'm saddened that I could not give that to her - and not clear on why she could not accept that help from me. I guess my heart has not let go yet. Nor should it I suppose. So help with healing for all of us please!!!
Blessing, Sarah

Meditation for a bit.....

I have had little time in the last week to post here,or on other's blogs. Being here is a joy to me and a huge comfort. I've been dealing with my daughter Hanna, getting her some much needed help. It has been a heartbreaking and exhausting process. I feel blessed that we have found a solution for her that will help everyone, most especially her. So.... being on the other side of all the drama for the moment, I've needed a couple of days to breathe and think through it all & meditate a bit. Hope everyone's week is a good one!!! Blessings, Sarah

Bliss

Nonni set this little pig on her stool in the archway this morning – and there he sits. Very cute and quiet. It made me think about how often we don’t sit – just sit and ponder life and everything that goes on around us. In an age of cell phones, computers, blackberries and instant answers, I think we have forgotten how to wait. To just sit and contemplate nothing. When I posted the picture of Nonni swinging – that blissful moment of “Rapture” as Lisa said – it occurred to me that, that feeling was really hard for me to come by these days. I remember how it felt , that wonderful liquid feeling of all over body joy!! I wondered how did I reach that feeling before and where did it go?
As a child we lived on a farm in Tennessee. I adored it there. When I think of feeling that bliss it is there my mind goes to. I did a lot of just sitting there. We had a huge red barn & I would sit up in the loft window and read “Charlotte’s Web”. I could look down and see the story unfold before me. It was bliss. I had horses , another blissful thing for me – I adore them to this day. There was also a view of the mountains – stunning! To this day the first look at a snow covered mountain top or a beach with crashing ocean waves brings that wonderful liquid bliss I long for.
The concept of being present is everywhere today!! It is one of the tenants of Buddhism – to stay present – in the moment. Truly, when we are chasing the past or looking to the future we miss all the things that happen around us! I really believe we have to be present to feel that bliss.
John Lennon said, ”Life happens while your busy making plans.”
Yes it does, while we text , click, chat , run and plan our lives away. The stress in our lives keeps us running and we are not present. How many of us sit up in the middle of the night rethinking the days problems and stress?
So today I am going to be that little pig on the stool. Well maybe not so cute – but present. I’m going to let go of all the problems and stress and breathe my way to being in the present. Maybe just for a little while today… maybe I can find a bit of that liquid bliss. Blessings, Sarah

Love this Picture!!

We had a brief, kind of warm day last weekend!! We took full advantage. Of coarse I took out the new camera - am clueless how I got this shot. I do love how it turned out. Do ya like her huge gloves? LOl - she couldn't find hers so she wore mine!! I think we are both ready for swing weather!! Ommmmmmmmmmm

Hmmmmm lots of things......

I have a Lemonade award to pass on from Snap @ http://twistylane.blogspot.com/ She also gave one to my sister - how fun is that!!Snap is a joyful, amazing woman - I adore reading her blog... always enlightening and lifts my spirits. You should go pet her llama. Thank you hon!!!! Here are the rules for the award:
1.Put the logo on your blog or post
2.Nominate at least 10 blogs that show great Gratitude and/or Attitude.
3.Be sure to list and link your nominees within your post.
4.Let them know they have received this award by leaving a comment on their blog.
5.Nominate your favorites and link to your post....
I would like to give this award to....

Sherry @ http://byrumart.blogspot.com/ - Sherry of my favorite people - she always has such an amazing attitude, she is warm and welcoming. She has encouraged me to keep working at my art!! Which has been a huge blessing to me....Thank you Sherry!!!!

Karmen @ http://karnylife.blogspot.com/ - I have the delight and honor of knowing Karmen in person. She is not only amazing, but sweet and giving to boot! She struggles with Fibro - but you would never know it - her spirit and attitude are a blessing to everyone who knows her!!



Marie @ http://modfarmgirl.blogspot.com/ tagged me - I do love these!! Thank you Marie. Here are the rules of being tagged:

-Link to the person who tagged you
-Post these Rules in your Blog
-Write 5 Random things about yourself
-Tag random people at the end of your post and link to them
-Let each Person know they've been tagged

Here are a few unusual things about me....
1. I love the smell of Carnations, lavender & grapefruit.
2. I adore Fall & Halloween.
3. Creepy crawly things do not bother me much - I kind like them.
4. I love candles. MMMMmmmmm
5. I love amber, turquoise & jade

I will tag......
Tammy @ Light and Shadows Studios
Suzanne @ Periwinkle Studio
Heather @ Ramblings of the Shy and Insecure



I won an amazing pair of earrings from Micki @ http://thearthermit.blogspot.com/...
So beautiful I loooooove them!!!! She also sent along a cute magnet and a lollie - which my daughter ran off with - lol. I really love her blog - she is a total crack up!! Thank you Micki!

Wishcast Wednesday - Who do you wish to send love too?

I could write pages here I think. There are so many wonderful people who deserve this wish. But I think I will limit myself to a few who I feel deeply need some extra loving today. So..... I wish to send love first to Kate - my sweet 21 year old daughter. She is a bit lost in her life at present... keeping herself separate from me and those who love her. I have had to step back and let her be apart and not enable her. Which has been painful and very difficult. I know she will return to the fold - in time. So Mama's love to Kate.
To my sister Anne. I have watched her handle her husband's battle with cancer, all the ups and downs, joy and deep sadness with such amazing grace. Here's some extra love for you hon!!!
To Renee and Audrey who's amazing strength and bravery amazes me! Both struggling with cancer, they lay it out there for us in such honest and straight forward ways! What a gift they are to all of us!! So here is a little gift for both of you - some love coming your way!
To my friend Rebecca whose life is a crazy firestorm at the moment!! She is brave and strong and needs a soft place to land - free of judgment and attitude. Here is a big, soft pillow of love for you hon!!!
Love you all, Sarah